Hidden Inside

It’s heavy, tough, weighing down on me,
It’s overpowering,
A burden I carry,
Questioning every part of me.

It becomes stronger and bigger,
Then it takes over all of me,
Overshadows,
Makes me not believe in me.

They do, but why can’t I see,
Why can’t I believe?
Why is it so hard to see what they see?
Constant doubt and negativity.

Deep down, only I know what is real,
What is there, lying dark inside,
The trauma, the pain, the anxiety,
It makes me, me.

But to hide it, fight it, constantly,
It’s draining and painful,
Takes its toll on me,
Destroys my energy.

I try again, don’t let it in,
I really don’t want to let it win,
Keep on with this battle against myself,
Finally it will ease, will it ever leave?

by Eve McGinn, Bury St. Edmunds